Today, 1 of my family hamster went missing. My favourite one too. Sigh. We find it for so long. Yet no response. Must be dead. My sis cried alot. While i simply Have no tears. Maybe i didnt contribute that much. Than when i went to my ah ma house. My aunt was kinda in this mood call
" I m going to die soon " . I thought she was just saying it. then she say, all my thing are prepare. I got my sms written well. when i cant make it. I will send to 3 of you guys. Than i was . WAT THE HELL !!! NOOOOOOO... Than she say all her insurance and personal stuff have given to my grandma to keep. All her certificate Are proper organize. LIKE SHE IS READY TO GO!! I WAS DAMM SAD. damm sad..damm sad...... You guys may think that i am a heartless person. " seriously you guys think i am. I never shed tears of pets, or what so ever. FOR A HAMSTER -.- . NO WAY... Well back to this. Some people saw me cry. and only through that short period of crying session. i will say ALL the thing i have been kept in my heart... IT KINDA SUX. REALLY. Why am i like these. I rather people dun know me than know me. I DUN LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ME SO WEll. I dunno why. Maybe to some . i am willing to share my life. I cant Stand death... i cant bear to see my love 1 just go on a " holiday" . I really cant... IS TOO DAMM PAIN... my aunt always dote me. sometimes. I remeber she always scold me. HAHAS. YEAH . cos my primary school result were poor. So she teach me things. MY TEACHER. SO IS THE BEST!!! she is very hardworking. Example. Her chinese isnt that good. So she cant teach me. And she felt that she must learn chinese again. SO she went to study chinese HERSELF... No matter how hard it is. SHE study. i was amazed... PRO LAR !!! she has the MOST resilience in my family. I happy that i have sure aunt. but... if she go... I dunno what to do. I cant do those fake smile anymore... You people think that i was laughing??? well some yes. Some no. but laugh on~ I dunno what to say le lar. God please help my aunt... whatever you do. i respect your decision. But let me have some time with her once again... have fun again... let her be happy again. Then. relieve her from all the pain she carry for years... PLZ LORD.